____D e a r . D i a r y__First scene - ...Today will be different. It has to be ! I will smile and it will be believable. My smile will say "I'm fine, thank you. Yes I feel much better". I will no longer be the sad little girl who lost her parents. I will start fresh. Be someone new. This is the only way I make it through.
__Cemetery scene - ...I mean I through the day. I must have said "I'm fine, thanks" at least 37 times. And I didn't mean it once. But no one noticed. When someone asks "How are you ?", they really don't want an answer.
__Final scene - ...I couldn't been more wrong. I though that I could smile, and walk my way through it, pretend that everything will be okay. (I had a plan. I wanna to change who I was, create a life as someone new. Someone without the past.) Without the pain. Someone alive. But it's not that easy. The bad things stay with you. (They follow you. You can't escape them as much as you want to). All you can do is be ready for the good. So when it comes, you invite it in, because you need it. I need it.